‘This powerful memoir by the former EastEnders star will touch even the hardest heart’ The Sun

At 2.30 in the morning of 29 June 2008, Brooke Kinsella received a phone call. It was her sister Jade, telling her that their beloved brother Ben had been stabbed while out celebrating finishing his GCSEs. The Kinsella family's shock soon turned to grief when Ben lost his fight for life later that day, surrounded by those who love him.

Too upset at the time to speak about Ben's senseless murder, and with Ben's killers now convicted and behind bars, the former EastEnders actress is able to reveal her full story in this heartbreaking and beautifully written memoir that celebrates the life of a young man whose future was so cruelly stolen from him.

Beginning with Ben's death an ending with the aftermath of the trial of his killers, the book is an extremely personal and powerful portrait of loss in the age of knife crime. From their first Christmas without Ben to facing the accused in court for the first time, Brooke writes in detail about the devastation that was caused in one night and which has changed her and her family's life forever. It is a powerfully moving and brave exploration of grief.

‘The actress Brooke Kinsella writes in raw detail about the stabbing of her young brother Ben – and the extraordinary effect of the grief, guilt and anger that engulfed her family’ Mail on Sunday?